Life is NOT like a box of chocolates!

Chocolates are sweet. Chocolate is fun. Chocolate makes me happy! Life these days does not. Things are a little better with Kaitlyn. We did finally end up talking the other day. We haven't been fighting so bad the last couple days. Well.....since the bathroom door incident Sunday. I think that finally made her see what her temper is really like. Bedtime is still a nightmare. but i can't have it all right! Today the guy who has been staying with us delpoyed. Kinda strange without him. His wife and baby are still here for a couple more days. She's packing up their stuff now and her dad will be in tomorrow night. They are leaving first thing Thursday morning. So.....the girls and i will be all alone soon! That seems so strange! In some ways i have been looking forward to this day for a month! I've been waiting as patiently as i can for them to get out of my house but then at the same time....it's been nice sometimes to have people around. Although i gotta say....after a week they were getting on my nerves! It'll be nice to have my living room back! It'll be nice to have my house back! Kaitlyn can move back into her own room. I can get all their stuff out of my dining room! I can sit on my couch again because there won't be anyone laying on it all day and night. Especially on the weekends! Ash can come hang out and we won't have anyone to annoy us! It's going to be great to have my house back! But then i won't have anyone to talk to when i can't sleep at night. Of course i also won't have anyone on my computer when i want to be on it! So anyway.....things are going to be changing again this week. I hope that the girls respond well to this change. I think they will because i think they are ready for me to be here for them and no one else around. I think they just need some MOM time! It's been a month this week since Daddy left and we all need some time without other people around. Now if i could just get the money situation straightened out! We are apparently not getting all our allowances because our pay is not really much more than it was when he was here. I am barely making ends meet and i have nothing more to do anything with after paying the bills! This is just crazy! I hate not being able to do anything for my kids. I've tried looking for a job but where we live there isn't anything. Everything is shutting down for the winter. The few stores that stay open all year are cutting back on staff so they aren't hiring. I'll have to drive the 30 miles to find something closer to the base. That's the only area that stays open year round. But if i don't make at least $300 a week...it won't be worth going that far. I'll spend $100 a week just in gas to get there and back! I seriously do think i'm going to have a nervous breakdown! You are right, Becky, deployments really do mess with your mind! This one has not gotten off to the smoothest start and it's driving me nuts now! It may not be so bad right now but the people who have been sponging off us for the past month aren't helping me out so i'm supporting them too and now they are all leaving and i am broke already! We just got paid yesterday! Anyway....thanks for letting me rant! Not like you have a choice! It is my blog after all! So i guess i should say thanks for reading my rant and making it this far! You guys are the best!