The Basics of this and that

Sometimes sitting down here to write is overwhelming. There is so much in my head that i want to get out. I feel like i am going to sit here and just go on and on and on and on and.....well you get the idea. I am feeling really cranky today! I'm not really cranky but i am feeling it! I think it's a combination effort that my mind and body have going on to work against me! I'm tired....didn't sleep well last night. Lots of tossing and turning and waking up. I do that often though. I feel like if Jay called me right now i would just break down and cry again. I hate doing that to him. Of course he is so great about making me feel better and has me laughing in seconds. But that only makes me miss him more. I'm feeling very sad. My oldest and dearest friend's husband is leaving soon. She just found out last night how soon. She's all the way back home in AR and i wish i could be there for her. Talking to her just makes me so sad for her. I know how bad it hurts to have your soul mate so far away. And i so wish no one else had to feel this way. My newest and dearest friend knows what i feel. We are going through this together. And i know she will agree with me that no one else should feel this way. So my mind is playing these tricks on me to make me remember the sadness of Jay leaving and forget that time is going by quickly and i'm doing ok here. But my body is tired and just wants to curl in a ball and be left alone. I started babysitting today though and i can't do those things! I'm able to sit here though because of nap time! But anyway....other than these things i wanted to tell you about our church service yesterday! I have had many conversations lately with people about Christianity and why i believe in God and why other's don't. Our sermon yesterday was on knowing the basics of Christianity and how we often will spend so much time getting in depth with the intellectual aspects of religion that we forget the simple basics of Christianity. Why do we believe in Jesus? What exactly do we believe about Jesus? If someone were to question us would we be able to defend our beliefs? If we know the basics of what we believe we should be able to....we've been taught the basics since we were very small....if we have spent our lives in church. If we haven't....well it's the first thing we are told when we come to know Jesus as savior. Jesus is both man and God. He was born of man but is fully God at the same time! It is that way...don't question it. No need to get intellectual....just know it is fact! If you can believe in UFO's and other earthly stuff you can believe that Jesus is God and Man at the same time. Jesus died on the cross for our sins....YOURS and MINE! Not just people of his own lifetime...Jesus lives today...in Heaven....he died for ALL OUR sins. All we have to do is ask him to forgive us for our sins because he has paid the price for them already. It's all right there in the Bible. Check out Romans specifically. That book can tell you all you have to know about this part. The wages of sin is death. Christ did that for us. The gift of God is eternal life. All we gotta do is ask him to be LORD of our lives and he gives us that gift freely. Not hard right! HERE'S THE HARD PART!!!!! What He expects of us in return......i can hear some of you now...i knew there was a catch! Well, yeah....we have to live for Him. that's all! Easier said than done i know. doesn't mean a lifetime of boredom. I have a great time! But i don't have to drink or other things to have a good time. I have a good time and remember that i had a good time the next day! I can laugh about it with my friends for years because there was nothing clouding my judgement and memory. But this is the hard part for many people. If someone held a gun to our heads and said "if you say you are a believer in Christ you will die" we will take the bullet for him. We'll die for him. But if someone came to us and said "we need you to teach this sunday school class." or "we need you in the choir" or "can you serve on this committee" we will think about it long and hard before saying yes or we will just say we can't do it. If Jesus is telling us to give up a bad habit for him we will think long and hard about it before doing it or we will just say now Jesus that's my business. We can't LIVE for him. It's too hard! So to come to my end of this long long blog today....i just want you to think about it.....is it easier for you to die for Jesus than it is for you to live for him? I found it very hard yesterday. I came out of church to find that someone had smeared applesauce all over the driver's side window of my car! So disgusting! My kids acted like little monsters in the commissary. To the point i finally stopped and said "I WILL NOT TELL YOU AGAIN! don't walk away from me.....don't touch each other....don't talk to each other.....quit fighting....and stay out of the way so i can get the rest of this stuff and we will leave!" Didn't help but i tried to get through to them. I was having a very hard time remembering that people are watching! People pay attention to every move you make. Especially if they even suspect that you are a Christian. hard to remember that sometimes because i don't want to be the one who does something that another person sees and says I can't be one of those people! not if they act like that! But then i got home to find that Jay was online while we were out and i missed talking to him. It was our last chance before he went out on a mission too! So then i was really sad because i like to tell him i love him before he goes out. Well....this is really really long now so i'm gonna go! Thank you for reading this far! Have a happy day!