Christmas time is here

I finally sucked it up and dragged all the decorations and the tree up from the basement. And you know what....i'm glad i did! Even though Jay isn't here with us, it's nice to see our tree up and all our decorations from over the years. Some from my childhood, some from his childhood, some we have bought for our kids, and others we have just collected over the years we have been together. It's like having pieces of him here with us. I got us a new ornament this year....it's actually 2 ornaments.....each part of it is a teddy bear holding 1/2 a heart and kinda leaning on another heart. So one of them goes to him over there and on the 1/2 a heart i put my name and our girls names and the whole heart says Miss You. Then on the one that stays here i put his name on the 1/2 heart and the whole heart says Love You. That way he has a piece of us and we have a piece of him and next Christmas we can join our hearts again. So i'm looking forward to getting that one on our tree. I'm also looking forward to hanging the ornament from the CMW ornament exchange on my tree! The one i got is soooooo pretty! It's going to be gorgeous hanging there. We have never lived in such a spacious home though so i have quickly discovered that i don't have that many decorations! And of the few i do have....some are missing! I can't find my big wreath! It hangs above my entertainment center every year and was hand made my Jay's mother and now it's gone! I'm really really unhappy about that! Of course if i tell her she will happily make me another. Actually i may call her later and tell her. Not because i want to put her out but because i'm really saddened by it's vacancy! It was one of the few things she has given me over the years that i really liked! She didn't give me her son so he doesnt count! God gave me her son! She was just fortunate to be the one to raise him. So anyway.....i do miss my Honey during this time of year. But i still feel better just getting out the decorations. Besides there was NOTHING like putting up the tree and looking outside to see snow falling and a blanket of snow already on the ground. It just made things seem right even when they aren't completely. Like even in such a sad time there is still beauty and wonderful things all around me. And then i got a phone call that our Christmas pictures are ready today! We were not expecting them back until December 13th!!!! I'm very happy about that! Now i just have to drive all the way to Watertown and get them! In the snow! I hope the roads are clear! I don't plan to go til tomorrow though at the earliest! So it will be ok. Well....i'm off to see if i can find the snow shovel and clear the walk. If not i'll have to go to the store at some point and get myself a new one! Turns out....i really do kinda like the snow! It really doesn't bother me so much! I know i am just getting into the winter here and it will get worse but i'm ok with it. Have a great week!