Ain't No Sunshine When He's Gone

Ain't no sunshine when he's gone, it's not warm when he's away, ain't no sunshine when he's gone, and he's always gone too long, everytime he goes away.

So we've had to face the dreaded "D" word. He's been gone a couple days now. So far we are doing really well with the whole situation. I can sense the breakdown wanting to come and it will tomorrow i'm sure. Tomorrow will be the first time i have been alone since he left for any period of time. But it's ok...i think i need to have a good cry over it. I haven't allowed myself the time to do that yet. Although as i type this, i can feel the tears wanting to fall. We all need a good emotional release every now and then. So there's nothing wrong with that. Anyway. The girls and i have stayed busy the last couple days. Just finding things to get out of the house to do. We have a couple friends staying with us right now. That's been really helpful. The guy is in Jay's unit actually but he just got here last week and his wife is expecting their first child really soon. So he gets to stay here til the baby is born then he has to go over. Jay went to AIT with this guy so it's nice to have old friends around. Well, not that old, and more for Jay than me....but it's like we have known them forever. He's great with the kids. He seems to think he's one of them. But you know how guys are....it takes a while for them to grow up and he's still a youngin too. It's been nice to have them both around the last couple days. He is keeping the kids entertained and I have someone to talk to. I miss Jay so much already. It's going to be a long 15 months. I know tomorrow will be harder though. When everyone else is coming from work around 5:30 and he's not. When i don't have to get up so early to send him off to work with a kiss and a hug. When there is no phone call at lunch just to say I love you. But it's going to be ok. I'll learn how to handle it one day at a time. That's the best i can do, right. Man, i hate deployment!