Living Life!!!!

I'm up and ready to have a fantastic day! I talked to my Honey at 2 this morning. That's always a good way to start the day! I talked to my friend Ashley last night and we are going to start our own business. We are going to make jewelry....primarily patriotic themed. I'll post our website when we have it up and running. Our business is called The Silent Ranks Designs. I'm really looking forward to it! I'm going to get some stuff today to get us ready and she's going to get some supplies to make a few things for us....gotta advertise the product right! Anyway....it's gonna keep us busy with something to do that possibly could make us a little money! We can make stuff when we are hanging out or when we just need something to do but not necessarily all the time, so we can have some free time too! Anyway.....i think it'll be good for us. So i went to church yesterday. Glad i wore my boots too! My feet are sore because of wearing the boots all day and not because of the toe stomping that went on during the service! Believe me....he got me good yesterday! He was talking about the power of Jesus and why we may not be feeling it in our lives like we once did. How sin separates us from God and the lack of true repentance puts a barrier between us. How does this effect me you ask! I'll tell ya! I have habits that are daily habits...things many of us do daily....we all have habits after all. Some of these habits are sinful. I ask for forgiveness but the next day i do the same things anyway. It's like telling God...YES i know you don't like when i do this but i'm gonna do it anyway and you can just forgive me for it. This is what i do and that's what you do. Well....what kind of attitude is that? Would i be totally mad at my kids for that type of attitude? YOU BET I WOULD!!! In fact when they act like that...i get really angry! Then when they want me to do something for them...i get so mad because how dare they treat me with such defiance then expect me to take them out or buy them something! Am i not doing the same thing? Am i not telling God....i'll do things my way and you will do things my way too! Some how is that not just stupid? Then how can i expect my kids to do any better? What kind of spiritual example am i setting for them? In fact, God tells us....really straightforward....if we continue in our sin, he will not hear us. WOW! I tell my girls all the time when they are defying me "I'm not listening to you right now because you are not listening to me. when you get your attitude right, come back and see me." HMMMM.....wonder where i've heard those words before! Could it be that God's telling me the same thing? DUH!!!! Of course he is! I'm telling you yesterday really got to me! God grabbed me by my face so i could totally focus on Him and got in my face on that one! Keliah does that to me...if she feels i am not hearing her she grabs my face and holds it while she gets in my face to tell me something. I'm telling you i could feel God's hands on my cheeks holding me there saying LISTEN TO ME!!! I think it's about time i do that too! It's time to quit the smoking....get my attitude in check....do all these things i know i should be doing and really mean it when i say My life is yours, God, do with me as you will!