Loving him makes me smile!

He called me yesterday afternoon! I was so happy to hear his voice that i cried as soon as i got HEY HONEY out! But i calmed down fast and we had a great great great conversation! There are just not words to describe it...it was so wonderful! There were times where i cried and he cried and i cried some more. But it was so great to get to talk to my best friend! It hit me yesterday....i don't just miss my husband....the man i have a husbandly relationship with...i miss my best friend! The person that is first in my thoughts when ANYTHING happens...i cant wait to tell him....the person i talk to about everything whether he understands it or not. I miss my best friend! Thank God i still have Steph! She's second on my list of who i call when anything happens! And i do still call her! I called her and told her Jay called before i even called Jay's mom to pass on his message to her! That's it though....that's why deployment is so hard! It's not that i miss the good things about being married....sex, having a man around for whatever i need, etc....it's just that i miss my best friend. So when we were on the phone yesterday we were talking about what we miss the most and he said the same thing....he misses his best friend. He misses us just hanging out watching CSI and Scrubs and talking. Just talking. Telling each other the highpoints and lowpoints of our day. Just simply being with each other and if there is nothing to say....then just sitting on the couch holding hands watching tv and saying nothing at all. I changed my call tone on my phone yesterday...i did it with him in mind. So when he called he heard it instead of ringing. I asked him how he liked my new call tone....he said I was doing ok til i heard it...then how much i miss you hit me like a bolt of lightening. Now you are wondering what it is aren't you! OK....here's the words to it...i'll leave you with this thought....The song is Here Without You by 3 Doors Down....and this is mine and Jay's deployment song The chorus is the calltone...here's the words......I'm here without you baby, but your still on my lonely mind. I think about you baby, and i dream about you all the time, I'm here without you baby, but your still with me in my dreams and tonight....it's only you and me. (if anyone wants the words to the whole song...leave me a comment and i'll post them too)