Things just work that way don't they

So here i am....been feeling sorry for myself for several days now. It's my own issues as i have explained on here before. I think maybe i'm not the only military wife to go through this. At some point during our husbands deployments we have to face other people's husbands coming home when our's are still there. I guess we have to learn how to handle our own emotions toward that eventually. I was doing great til guys from here started coming home. They've been there long enough it's time for them! And we have known for MONTHS that they were set to come home around this time. But i wasn't prepared for how that was going to affect me! So i have let myself be miserable because of it. I just wanted to talk to my honey and i wanted him here and i was just a mess! So then last night around 8:30 my time he called me! I was soooo excited but then as soon as he said Hey Hun how are you? i broke down and started crying! I told him why i was crying and what i was doing to myself and all. He said that he will be home soon, quit crying! Before i knew it he had me laughing. We talked about how he was trying to get his R&R for our anniversary and so we would be 1/2 way through deployment when he took it. Which is exactly what we both want! I really miss him but i DO want to wait as long as possible to see him for R&R. I don't want us to still have a YEAR to go after he leaves! We have just over 6 months now from the time he is trying to get it. which will leave us about 6-7 left when he has to go back. So most of deployment will be behind us by then! I just so needed to talk to him. I needed him to make me laugh. I miss him making me laugh! He's so good at it too. So i am feeling better now. I just depend on him so much. When i'm down he knows what to say and how to make me feel better. So having him so far away just makes those sad days even worse! He is so sweet though! I was talking to him and i said "i didn't want to break down on you like this. i hate when you call and i'm feeling so down. i don't want you to worry about me. you have enough going on." He said "Honey, you are my whole life. If i don't have you to worry about, then why am i here? I love you and i'll always listen to you, no matter how sad or happy you are." So after that our conversation was fantastic! I was just thinking after i got off the phone that it is funny how things work out, isn't it. I haven't heard from him in several days. I've been dealing with all these emotions and trying to not let them control me...unsuccessfully...and then suddenly he calls at just the right time! God knows what he is doing! And i am trying to learn the lesson he needs me to learn from all this! I'm just so thankful for my Honey!