Music, Love, Life

Last night in a moment of truly missing my hubby and out of grand nostalgia i watched my wedding video. I laughed all the way through it! My wedding was full of hilarity! In the video you see my cousin smack her daughter in the back of the head to tell her she is supposed to be bowing her head during prayer. My cousin was my MOH and her daughter, then 8-now 18!!!, was my flower girl. After my Granny was escorted to her seat she started a conversation with the person video taping. My sister couldn't get one of the candles to light during her role in the ceremony and started saying bad things to the candles then turns and yells at my mom that it won't light! To be fair mom yelled at her first from where she sat! And you can hear this on the tape! The candle did get lit after all that! And yes we did light them the night before to make sure we didn't have any problems! Let's see....what else...my brother.....then 11, now 21.....almost passed out. We had to have him taken to a seat. He was our ring bearer. He was so cute in his little tux too! Only time in his life he ever wore one! and i have it on tape! He chose the moment to try and pass out during the time we are kneeling on the prayer bench. THEN we go to light the unity candle and i knock it off the stand! Then my candle representing my parents will not blow out. It was just very funny! Looking back i just laugh every time i watch it! We have parts of the reception on tape too.....like Jay asking for a bib when we are feeding each other cake. Good times! Makes me miss him terribly! Not that i didn't before. But we haven't watched our video together in ages! We need to do that when he comes home for R&R. He's planning to be here for our anniversary anyway! Perfect timing. So other than this....i've been thinking about music a lot lately. How songs can mean so much to us. Everything from Friends in Low Places reminding me of driving around in Steph's truck that didn't have a radio so we sang that song very loudly to entertain ourselves to Me and You reminding me of when i pledged my eternal love and devotion to my beloved. 1,2,3 Like a bird i sing....will always remind me of Keliah and how she sings it over and over and over. and of Ashley because she used it on a video of us she made for me. it's on my myspace...go check it out. Wind Beneath My Wings will always remind me of first my mom because Beaches is one of our favorite movies to watch together. and two my old friend Brent because it was played at his funeral. Anything by the Beach Boys reminds me of my dad because he LOVES them and i took him to see them in concert one summer. That's the only time we have been to a concert together and it was so fun! One Tin Soldier will always remind me of friends in Jr High because we sang that song over and over and over in choir class. Now i wish i could remember all the words. Music is just such a driving force in our lives! You know people who are behind the music must know this. So why do they make some of the smut they make? Why can't they be more inspiring? I know that everytime i hear I Can Only Imagine i will think not only of my Granny but also of Carla, Dody, Joyce, several other crazy women and a wonderful night of karaoke and fellowship! I can't say that songs like......well obviously i don't listen to that kind of music because i can't think of any!......but there are many songs hitting the airwaves every day that are less than inspiring. So why write them? Why not make life more positive? I will always feel pride when i hear American Soldier, God Bless America, Courtesy of the Red, White, and Blue, Star Spangled Banner, God Bless the USA....and so many others...that list can go on and on. Anyway....i was just wondering what song do you believe best describes you? My theme song i think is Who I Am by Jessica Andrews. This song just really gets me! I sing it loudly every time i hear it! so here's the lyrics in case you are wondering what the songs says:

If I live to be a hundred,
never see the 7 wonders,
That'll be alright
If I don't make it to the big leagues,
if I never win a grammy,
I'm gonna be just fine,
cause I know exactly who I am

Chorus: I am rosemarie's granddaughter,
the spitting image on my father,
And when the day is done my momma's still my biggest fan,
Sometimes i'm curious and i'm clumsy,
but i've got friends that love me,
And they know just where I stand,
it's all a part of me,
That's who I am

So when I make a big mistake,
when I fall flat on my face,
I know i'll be alright
Should my tender heart be broken,
i will cry those teardrops knowing,
I will be just fine,
cause nothin changes who I am

(chorus)

I'm a saint and i'm a sinner,
i'm a loser, i'm a winner,
I'm and steady and unstable,
i'm young but I am able

(chorus)

That's who I am

So that's it! My granny's name was Gladys Marie though, not Rose Marie! Anyway....this has gotten really long. So you guys have a fantastical kind of day!