Thanks for yesterday

I'm feeling a little better today. I allowed myself to wallow and deal with some emotions. I didn't just go through the being sad just to be sad. I tried to actually figure out what was triggering this sadness. Then i made some plans to go out to dinner with a friend tomorrow night with no children. I'm really looking forward to it! That alone has improved my mood so much! I'm going to meet some girls for lunch on Monday. That also has my mood lifted. I got paid for babysitting today! That right there did a LOT to help me! YAY for all these wonderful things! It's fantastic! I can pay my cell phone bill, buy that new digital camera i have my eye on and feed my family til Jay's pay day! Man, i love checks written in my name! LOL Things are looking up. We are almost to February. That's another month down. That's progress. I'm so excited. Only a few more months til R&R. THAT makes me happy! Between now and then i have Kaitlyn's birthday coming up and i'll have my own birthday and i'll just have to plan other things to keep me going from here to there. But i know i can do this. I've been doing it. I am going to the dr on Monday. I'm going to ask about some sort of treatment for my emotional and mental state. Hopefully we can do something to get me feeling better. That would be fabulous. Otherwise. The day is looking up. The weekend is looking really great. I hope to really enjoy myself for a change and not concentrate on the fact that it's been 9 days since i have heard my love's voice! Talk to you all later!