Well ...... what can i say

Seems like so much going on these days. The kids are back to school. So now i have to fight with them every day over homework. We still fight over bedtime but the fight is more important now because they need to be in bed at a certain time every night. If they aren't we fight every morning too! In some ways i love when school starts because i get some alone time again and i need that time to recharge. But in other ways i dont like it so much because of the homework and other battles it brings on. Aside from this, we also have the end of deployment coming upon us. Thank God! I am so sick of this! You it's so weird that you can make it through the first year of it and think "hey that wasn't great but it wasn't so bad.....i made it and i'm stronger for it" but when you go beyond that year mark and he is still gone, it just sucks. There is no other way to put it. You get down, you are tired, you just want him home, you are so sick of all of it. It just feels like this is way too much on all of you. You are getting crankier, he is getting crankier, the kids are crankier. Honestly....what was the Army thinking when they started 15 month deployments? They weren't thinking family values! They weren't thinking soldiers well being. I know what they were thinking.....they were thinking....more time 'boots on the ground' doing the job, less time in transition period, more effective work being done. In theory----good plan....in reality----plan sucks. We just need him home now. We need that other person in our family back! He's the other half of my soul and i need him. The kids need their father. We are struggling with some new issues that have recently developed. I think they are part of just reacting to him being gone for so so long. New anxieties coming out and not knowing how to deal with them. That and being excited about him coming home, combined with fear that something could happen so close to the end. They are still looking for outlets for those fears and anxieties and so they take them out on me, or they don't sleep at night, now it is sleepwalking. There is the ever present fear of the dark that is progressively getting worse. New things just keep coming up around here. Please just end this madness and bring him home! And of course he is not part of the torch party so he won't be one of the early arrivals. As my daughter said....with our luck he'll be part of the trail party! LOL Kids just get some things! I can't see that i will do much more blogging over the next few weeks. I could be wrong. But the way things have been going i don't see it happening. Consider this blog in a sort of transition now. I am preparing for that homecoming. My blog is undergoing that same transition. It will be moving from a deployment blog into a what happens after he comes home blog then on to a pcsing blog and then on to a this is our life blog.....such as it is......lol. So just be prepared....you never know what you will see!